Lulz

Posted on: September 29th, 2009 • 18 commentsLeave a comment?
Plugs: Amber, Lizz, Carissa, Syahadah, Ashleenah-Page, Farhana, Gel, Chrys, Ginny, Leon,

This entry is full of nonsensical things. Read at your own risk.

Think of your last two kisses, were they with the same person? = yep! :razz:
Do you get scared easily? = sometimes.
What are the chances of you getting the person you like? = *looks at Leon* he’s with me now.
Do you think you’ll have the same best friends a year from now? = uhh..I don’t have bestfriends.
Who is someone who can always make you laugh, even on a bad day? = Leon, if he makes those funny faces.
If you ended up in jail, who would be most likely to end up in there with you? = I don’t know.
Are you weak or strong? = strong outside, fragile inside :sad:
Do you have any friends who’s parents will no longer let them hang out with you? = I have no idea.
Do you really, truly miss someone right now? = yes.
Is it awkward when you run into your cousins? = only when I run into my cousins on my dad’s side.
Do you ever wanna know who you’re going to marry? = yeah.
Who are the third and eighteenth texts in your phone from? = third: Leon. Eighteenth: Leon (again!). LOL.
Who is your favourite band? = none.
Ever slept in a different bed besides your own? = o yeah.
What is one emotion you are feeling right now? = bored.
Who did you hang out with last night? = nobody.
What are you currently doing? = typing this up.
Have you told anybody you loved them today? = yes.
Any plans for tomorrow? = yes, and a bleeding stupid one too.
What’s the last thing you ate? = chicken wings, yummy! :smile:
Do you find the opposite sex confusing? = I do.
Can you sleep without blankets covering you? = hell, no. I need my security blanket. Lol. :razz:
Will your next kiss be a mistake? = I hope not.
Are you a forgiving person? = it depends on the situation.
What ticks you off the most? = stupid people.
What is your relationship status? = taken by Leon.
Do you believe love lasts forever? = yeah.
What is the closest thing to you that is blue? = my pillow.
How old do you want to be when you die? err… must I answer this question?
Do you believe what goes around comes around? = definitely yes.
Is there anyone holding a grudge against you? = maybe. Probably that’s why my other site got hacked the other day.
Are you listening to music right now? = naah.
Have you kissed anyone in the past month? = yes.
What are your initials? = N.A.K.
Would you date someone 20 years older than you? = I had. Once. Big mistake. He was a jerk. :x
How’s your heart lately? = beating nicely.
Are you wearing any jewelery right now? = yeah, my silver ring.
Do you have any piercings? = ears, and ears only.
Next piercing your getting? = no way.
Will you talk to the person you like tonight? = I hope so. If he ain’t busy tonight.
Any summer plans for 2009/2010? = not yet.
How long can you go without your phone? = err… 5 seconds?? :smile:
Do you have a bad temper? = yes yes yes.
Do you believe that there’s good in everybody? = yeah.
Anything you’re currently looking forward to? = spending time with Leon again.
Who was the last person to make you laugh? = my sister.
Look in your inbox in your phone, who are all the people you have texts from? = Leon. Just him. Really.
Are you happy? = now? Yeah. No. Maybe. I can’t decide.
Have you ever kissed anyone who’s name started with a C, D, J, N, T? C – no. D – no. J – no. N – no. T – no. HAHAHA!!
Do you prefer warm or cold? = warm. I can’t stand cold.
What is one thing you can’t sleep without? = my pillow (and blanket!).
Is there anyone that you care more about than yourself? = yes.
Do you have trust issues? = I don’t know.
Do you get along better with guys or girls? = I get along with both.
Would you kiss someone to make your bf/gf mad? = I may be not the brightest person on the planet but I ain’t that stupid either.
Think back to the last person you kissed, how many times have you cried in front of them? = countless.
Ever thrown up in a car? = no.
Is anyone over protective of you? = yeah. My parents.
Are you friends with the last person you kissed? Umm… I am friends with my dad…?
Your enemy is at your doorstep begging for forgiveness, what would you do? = open the door and slam it on his/her face. ;-)
Do you think someone is thinking about you right now? = I hope so.
Have you ever made someone so mad that they broke something? = I can’t remember.
Could you last in a relationship for 3 months? = yes, definitely.

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ALERT: the rest of the post would be full of depressing rambles. Bear with me, even if it is just for one paragraph.

Lately I have been feeling so insecure about my relationship with Leon. I keep on having these wild ideas that he no longer cares about me the same way he did 2 years ago… I don’t know why. :cry: And I don’t know how many times I’ve cried myself to sleep because of this. I’m sick of guys cheating on me. I’m sick of listening to empty promises. And I’m sick of this fucking life.
I swear I fucking hate this feeling. Life is difficult enough for me without these kind of things piling up on my shoulders.

Once in a while I think the world is such a cruel place. Cruel in the way how everything turns their backs on me. And at times, I seriously considered killing every single soul on the planet, had God given me the choice to do so. But maybe I’ll spare a couple of nice people, like my online friends.

My God, I need a therapy, or a counselor. Or both. Or maybe a gun.

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Had I posted this entry a few days ago, the above paragraphs would have dominated the whole page. Luckily I decided to wait for a few more days. Good thing I did! Lulz, who would read such a depressing post?



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